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I don't even know what to think right now. Hubby is super excited that Facebook doesn't even want to do a 2nd interview before flying him out. I am so happy for his self confidence as it's needed the boost. What if they make him an offer though? Where will we live in the bay area? A tiny piece of shit to call our own for $800,000 or rent for$$3000 a month. I am used to owning my own property. I want to be able to afford to flip some property out there but ARGH on the housing. I know it's horrible to set my heart on something else but I did. At least the schools are great out there vs where I want to live. But for $300,000 I can build a house wiht a pool that's screened in, around 2800 sq ft, on a lake with access to bigger lakes, in an area everyone will want to visit. I'll never see my family with this scenario. I could see myself happy in scenario 2 but I won't rule out the first deal. I just won't let myself. Kat will thrive, B will thrive, I will hopefully survive. I just don't know how bad I'll worry about money out there.

I feel like I took a wrong turn in my life somewhere. I feel like crying from the stress but nooo I have to be strong and not have it look like I'm raining on hubby's parade. Nevermind it's pouring on mine.

Google people are idiots

In all honesty, hubby has admitted he's not the best at technical phone interviews. However, I think he should have been given a chance at an in person interview. He's a fucking genius and would do any company proud. He works like a dog and he hates the company he's at. Imagine if he loved the place! ARGH! He's a guru and he's been written off and Apple was turned down because of the pay grade. I hate that I can't say "oh, honey take a huge pay cut so you can work at the job of your dreams." Unfortunately real life kicks in and says "uh, BILLS to pay and housing out there is too damn expensive." So, where will we end up? Who the hell knows. He could be staying at his job that he hates or looking all over. I just have to veto the east coast based on mental health reasons. Unless it's the southern east coast. So, for the foreseeable future I'll be freezing my ass off for winters. It sucks because people hibernate here and don't do a damn thing socially.

In the mean time I've torn a muscle in my chest under my boob, on the side. It hurts like a bitch and I can't do anything to get this flab off me since I keep retearing the damn muscle. I know. Patience...but I have NONE!

I'm sick of hearing about Jesus and all the religious BS from Kat's school plus the costs keep rising. So, we're going to switch to public schools. Not thrilled about the educational value but the social value and art classes will be great for her. She'll get to go to school with her friends from the neighborhood which is a huge plus. I went to a private school with no one from my neighborhood and a public Magnet program that was out of my district. I never had any friends close by.

Just beat me over the heat with a 2x4.

More real now

Hubby had a great interview with Apple last night and now it all seems more real. Google is still his first choice but now competing offers!yay Ok, but now if he's out there mid March I'm on my own as a single parent until the end of June. YIKES! I know people do it all the time but I've never had to and I have a very active dad and husband. He does a lot of dishes, cooking and laundry plus I'd have to go through the house on my own besides daily shit. I'll live but man will it be lonely. I figure it will be good for me because I'll miss him so much I'll exercise like a fiend and clean like a mad woman. Why can't I think of any thing else right now? I should be fostering friendships but it seems pointless if we'll be moving.

I need to get my list together of what all to order for Kat's party. Ok, I've ordered 30 invites and instead of gift bags we're going to throw some rings on the table and stickers on the plates. It's at Chuck-E-Cheese so they can win their damn gifts. Do you realize how much Scooby Doo stuff costs? I was going to buy her some Scooby Doo stuff for her birthday and holy crap! It's expensive! We wouldn't invite so many kids but since we most likely will be moving... Why not?

I hate not being the best at something. Hubby is addicted to guitar hero and I've been playing a bit but he kicks my ass when he's on medium and I'm on easy. Even though I've gotten gold stars on the first song. It irritates me. Know what else irritates me? My ribs hurt. I had a bad coughing fit with Pneumonia and it's still not better. It's right under my right breast and ouch. I did pilates today and it really hurt like a bitch. I'll give it another week then see about having my boob squished or something. No Cancer! Maybe I'll wait until we're under the new insurance so if there is something it won't be a pre-existing condition. We'll see how bad it hurts next week.