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I don't even know what to think right now. Hubby is super excited that Facebook doesn't even want to do a 2nd interview before flying him out. I am so happy for his self confidence as it's needed the boost. What if they make him an offer though? Where will we live in the bay area? A tiny piece of shit to call our own for $800,000 or rent for$$3000 a month. I am used to owning my own property. I want to be able to afford to flip some property out there but ARGH on the housing. I know it's horrible to set my heart on something else but I did. At least the schools are great out there vs where I want to live. But for $300,000 I can build a house wiht a pool that's screened in, around 2800 sq ft, on a lake with access to bigger lakes, in an area everyone will want to visit. I'll never see my family with this scenario. I could see myself happy in scenario 2 but I won't rule out the first deal. I just won't let myself. Kat will thrive, B will thrive, I will hopefully survive. I just don't know how bad I'll worry about money out there.

I feel like I took a wrong turn in my life somewhere. I feel like crying from the stress but nooo I have to be strong and not have it look like I'm raining on hubby's parade. Nevermind it's pouring on mine.